I HAVE TO!

I know my short-comings.

I know that I tend to look at the world with rose-coloured glasses on, giving everyone the benefit of doubt, hoping a kind word here and there will lift someone's spirit. I fight hard to let nothing and no one wipe the smile off my face. I've been accused to living in a candy floss-bubblegum world inhabited by unicorns and pixies!!!! However, I always hung on to my ideals, my utopia where nice people win and they, the bad guys suffer a defeat.

But today, today they won.

I shouldn't have trusted. I shouldn't have opened up. I shouldn't have been so nice. I shouldn't have let them into parts of my life they had no business being in. I thought that their conscience would stop them from hurting me in any way, but then I always tended to over-estimate the goodness in people.

But we live and learn eh? It'll be difficult for me to not jump in heart-first, but I HAVE TO. It'll be difficult for me not to get involved, but I HAVE TO. It'll be difficult to accept what you did to me when you had no reason to do so, but I HAVE TO.

You leave me no choice, but thank you, for the life lesson. I guess that and the hurt come as a package deal.